I love October

I want to start off by saying I absolutely love this time of year! October is so beautiful! When I get married, I hope I can get married in October! Really I don’t care that much; whether I get married in October or not there will always be Octobers.

The past few months have been quite interesting. Last month (well, actually the end of August) I started back at BYU. I’m only taking 14 credits, but it’s still really hard. Biology is probably the hardest at this point. It is a relief to be going to school where I actually live, but it seems like I used to have so much more time! I think we always remember the past better and easier than it was.

This summer I was going to move into the master bedroom of my apartment on the condition that I would give up fast food. About a month later I realized this wasn’t right. I started to be afraid I couldn’t afford the room and so looked for the cheapest contract possible in the area and moved in. Upon moving in I met my new roommate, Keilyn. Keilyn and I had never met before, but she served her mission in Wisconsin! She never served in Milwaukee, but we still know a lot of the same people. I thought it was weird that we had so many connections and I felt Heavenly Father really led me to moving into this house. It’s obviously cheaper than where I lived before. I have to share a room and don’t have much space, but I feel like I am saving for the future in a not so indirect way.

My newest development (and by new, I mean about three days ago) is giving up soda.

I’m in the laundry mat and now this little girl (maybe 5 or so) wants me to watch a movie with her.

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Okay, who is this kid? She’s 6 years old and is sitting here telling me about hemoglobin.

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Okay so I finished my laundry and worked in the temple and now I’m home. I feel like going crazy lately. I can’t seem to live up to my expectations of my own self. I’ve always had this vision of who I want to be, but I’ve never been her. Maybe for a minute or two, but that’s it. Sometimes I see that person in other people and that’s what makes me want to be around them. I’ve come to realize that if I ever want to be happy I need to lower my personal expectations or give more input. (I prefer the latter, but it’s so hard!) I’m so shy, but lately I’m starting to feel like being shy at my age is selfish. I always wait until that last minute to do things, but I know I should and kick myself every time I do. It feels really good to do things ahead of time. SO I have some goals I really want to stick to through the rest of this semester. Here they are! (prepare yourself for something spectacular)

1. Do all assigned reading before class.

2. Spend time on homework. (And understand it! Use it as a study tool instead of a check mark)

3. Listen and understand everything in lecture.

4. Never miss lectures

5. Have study groups and teach in them.

6. Think about concepts I need to know in spare time. (example of spare time= waiting to pass breakfast trays at work)

7. Strive to find these concepts interesting and apply them to real life.

8. Exercise everyday (sharpening the saw)

9. Keep my budget. (Less time worrying about money=more time to do useful things)

10. Make a to do list every night for the next day. (this was an idea from my visiting teachee)

11. Pack a good lunch every day. (no vending machine)

I realize some of these things are things I should already be doing. I guess there are 11. Maybe I can call them something like “The spectacular and awesome list of eleven things to do this semester that will catalyze awesomeness in my life for all eternity”? Anyway, I need to continue making cookies. Good night Neverland!